Sunday 22 May 2022

Tiny things.

My dad always says that you can't change the world, but you can change yourself, and in doing so you might positively impact others who then change themselves and so on and so on so that ultimately, in a microscopic way, you have changed the world. 

And I think I might have said something similar before, but it's on my mind a lot right now, so it's always worth repeating. 

I have noticed recently that after moments of anger or frustration I might have taken out on those around me, I instantly feel really, really guilty about it. I feel guilty for not having more compassion for the other person, for not being more mindful, for not having more patience. I feel guilty for impacting others in a negative way. This doesn't mean that my anger is never justified, but when I can look at it afterwards and feel a lot less empowered by my actions, it leaves a very bitter taste in my mouth. 

When I have a positive interaction with another person, or even if I witness someone's positivity, I feel instantly transformed. I relax, I smile, I have a skip in my step. I then take this positive energy and pass it on to the next person, thus creating (hopefully) a chain of something to feel good about. In this moment I am thinking of the TFL platform worker who welcomed customers to the station like they were entering some sort of show. Or the train driver who sings little songs about the journey on the Northern Line over the tannoy. I think of Big Issue sellers who have chatted to me, telling me about their day, wishing me the best. Or the lady who turned her car around to give me a plaster for my hand when I fell off my bike at uni all those years ago. 

These seem like tiny things, and they are, but the more compassion we have for each other, the more positive energy we share, the easier life is. When you're not holding tension and projecting everything you are stressed about onto that wanker who just knocked into you during rush hour, life is easier. You let go more. You roll your shoulders back and breathe. 

And this is isn't the primary solution for the utter mess that the government is in, or the cost of living crisis, or climate change but maybe it makes the living part of it all a tiny bit less shit. And if it's a tiny bit less shit, maybe we start making better decisions that positively impact both our own and others' lives. Either way, it does me the world of good.